Train is now my favourite mode of transport. I just love it! Can’t wait to spend a whole week away with my favourite girls! Bring on the beach!

I’ve got shame, I’ve got scars,
That I will never show.
I’m a survivor,
In more ways than you know.

Cause all the pain and the truth,
I wear like a battle wound.
So ashamed, so confused,
I was broken and bruised.

Only had 2 hours sleep last night and it didn’t help at all. It still feels as though my heart has been ripped out of my chest, I’m shaking, can’t stop crying and breathing is getting difficult again. I am so sorry for everything. I know I’ve hurt you such an incredible amount, but in doing so I’ve hurt myself so much more than you’ll ever realise. I am just so sorry.

bloodyarms:

The worst thing after you have cried so hard is that your eyes hurt so bad and you have a headache and all you do is want to sleep but can’t close your eyes because they burn and laying on your head hurts too bad

I have no reason for even breathing now. I want out.

A few months of not hurting myself are just away to go down the drain. I am so sorry.